I kind of want to go punk style.
Actually, I've always loved punk and emo styles, but I knew that my parents would never let me. But I'm going to be a senior in just a few days, and I'm in a school that tolerates pretty much all types of people with no problems. XD

And honestly, I've just had the worst luck for the past year....and it seems that every time something good happens, something bad takes over and makes me feel even worse because I miss the happiness.....for example, I had a friend over last weekend. We saw a movie and then came to my house and watched the hilarious YouTube series "Naruto Abridged" and laughed our asses off, chatted on chat sites, watch a bit of anime, played with the puppy, and stuff....the next day, my brother and I got in a huge fight (Not gonna go into details) and I ended up crying my eyes out more than I can ever remember doing so (It's extremely rare for me to cry), and I could actually FEEL myself wanting to be a murderer or even suicidal...yeah, it wasn't fun. But things got worse. Again. Long story short, I can barely talk or even eat now. It sucks ass.

Like is a bitch. And I seriously felt emo for a while...still feel a bit emo, but I'm not dumb enough to start cutting myself, so dressing emo would make me a poser. But punk is really just a style of dress. Since I already have the "leave me alone/quiet/easily angry" attitude, I could probably pull it off. And then there's my weird blood fetish too.
Of course, this means that I would have to wake up a bit early to put make-up on and straighten my hair and stuff, but I've actually been wanting to do that stuff for the past two years anyway. And I want two new piercings on one of my ears (the kind like Pein has. lol  Silver ones, up at the top part)

Oh. And I'm gonna get a tattoo also. It's gonna be on my upper left arm...and it's gonna be the paw print one I designed for my OC, Shishiro Nagura, from my manga.
But I haven't told my parents yet   But they probably won't let me get it in high school & I don't turn 18 until almost a month after I graduate, so.....I will get it though. I've promised myself that much
But that's not the only tattoo I plan on getting in my life time. I know another that I plan to get, though I'm not sure if it's even possible. XD  But that doesn't matter for now. I'll worry about it later on in life. lol


For the record, my parents are probably gonna shit when I tell them that I wanna go punk next year. XD  Especially the tattoo part---though my mother and I had talked about getting tattoos a number of months ago. haha  But I think I remember her saying that I can't get one until I'm 18. Oh well. I have tens of thousands of dollars in a bank account, so I think I'll have enough to buy myself a tattoo like that. haha
And my little brother will probably call me a poser anyway...even though punk is really just a style of dress. But whatever.

As for the talking problem....I'll have to talk even quieter and steadier than usual....which will give me even more of a punk appearance! XD hahaha  But that's the only way I can talk without this stupid lisp.


And you know what realllllllllyyyyyy makes me wanna do this?
Back before Christmas, I was at a mall and went into this cool skater store and saw this seriously (seriously) epic punk-style shirt that looked just like a picture of a character from this one manga I have. I really loved that shirt, and it was soft too; made from really good material. Cost $60. My parents wouldn't buy me it & I didn't have enough money at the time. I still don't right now, and I doubt the shirt is still there, but I would totally buy it if I ever see it again.